The Job hunt - Where Anticipation Happens

"second place just means your the first loser" - Kobe Bryant

just did a follow up call for the job. I first talked to one of my interviewers since the other one didn't answer the phone. We exchange our respective greetings. We each ask the status of each other's day. I inquire about the job that I had interviewed for. He said he believes they extended an offer to someone.

Thoughts race through my mind. Is Pacquiao going to win? How long can the Lakers bench keep up the effort showcased last night? Why is kobe SO good in the post? Is this guy telling me an offer is going to come to me soon? What am I going to eat for breakfast?

"I believe we extended an offer to someone, and you were our backup" -not Kobe Bryant

More thoughts begin to race through my mind....in a much slower fashion...my thoughts were power walking through my mind....now what? how do I end the conversation with this person? How do I sound like everything is A-okay to this person? then suddenly, POOF - thoughts just collapsed, and I tried to say good bye....but since kljasdflaksjdhf was in my mind at the time it came out as a sulky "o..ok..well thanks...I'll keep up to date then"

why did I say that? I'm not going to update. He knows that, why did he agree to me saying that I will keep up to date with them?

As if being semi-rejected weren't enough....I decided to call human resources, JUST to be sure. "Hi Julian, I was just going to call you, can you give me a second?"

A combination of their advertisements and elevator music flooded my right ear as I waited there knowing exactly what she was going to say after a brief period of making sure I'm the one they didn't pick.

"Hey, Julian, thanks for waiting, unfortunately, they did offer the position to someone else - You and the other person were the top 2 candidates, but they went with the other person after talking with the supervisor. I'm sorry, but if you are interested in our company I definitely suggest on keeping up to date with our company" -also not Kobe Bryant

Ohhh the irony...I wanted to say, LOL, like the letters straight out to her, " L-O-L, I just told the other guy that, I'm going to keep up to date!" But I decided not to pry, and I sasid "okay, thank you very much"

From the tone of her voice, I could sense that she could tell I've had better days

So that's my 3rd overall rejection... but this was definitely the closest, and I had a feeling I had this one. That's what I get for too much anticipation.

Now back to the drawing board. Back to focus. Back to determination. Back to reality.

My life - where anticipation happens.

"It's the desire to prove yourself again, and again, and again. It pushes you to the limit and then a little bit further, and it reminds you that your best, can always be better" -Kobe Bryant

-J